Lately, I eat two bites of something and feel full cause I have no appetite. The doc said I’ve lost 12 pounds from not eating. That’s probably not a good thing. Plus I can barley find the motivation to get up and take a fucking piss, so getting out the door in the morning is out of the question. But I feel like an idiot laying around all day. Can’t win I guess.
The first Team Shithead Podcast, featuring Charles, Tom, and Christian of Latin For Truth. Topics range from Government, Rabbits, Roadkill, Shows, Capital Punishment, the origins of Team Shithead, and Dr. Thunder
not gonna say anything about this, you just have to listen. check the grucru love and portland hate.
I pretty much go to sleep when I get home from school, sleep till 10 or 11. Wake up, eat if I feel like it, then stay up till school, maybe sleep for an hour or two in between. I never slept normally before all this stuff happened, so I give up on ever having a normal sleeping schedule.
PropertyOfZack is stoked to be teaming up with Maker once again to stream a new acoustic song called “Shadows.” The band is currently in Zing Studios (Killswitch Engage, Underoath, The Devil Wears Prada) recording new tracks and hope to be done by the beginning of April. You can stream “Shadows” below by clicking “Read More.”
Then I have those dreams too, the ones where i’m running around like a fool to make things better for you. Like the good storyteller you once knew me as, I try to hold it in my head that no time has passed since I stood in circles with automatic friends. Not worried that the means justified the end. Cause life without love keeps my eyes wide, and my house stays clean when I don’t let people inside.
As much as it sucks that it happened this way I’m just glad we’re not making each other look stupid. No hard feelings is good and I think both of us understand why it has to be like this. So much I haven’t said though and this is the hardest thing i’ve ever done. Oh well. YOLO I GUESS.
now i’m not saying i’m an expert at this, because i’m not. i’m just going to hit you with some truth bombs that i know you all have been saying to yourself for hours, days, months, years (however long you’ve been single), and try to get you to knock all of the whining and…
Everyone, let me give you an explanation of what I think “love” is.
When you find someone, that truly, honestly, loves you, this person is going to make sure they never, ever, ever, ever hurt you. Put you through anything that can possibly have you feel pain, make you feel low of yourself, or have you wake up in fear due to how you think they might feel that day.
This person will never have you hurdling through hoops for them, making it feel like a competition for them.
This person is going to appreciate every single thing you do for them, no matter how small it is.. I can’t stress it enough. There will never be “another” person for them.
They will be interested in every fucking aspect of your life and want to know EVERY FUCKING THING you did EVERY FUCKING DAY.
The “honeymoon” phase will never end. There will be no settler or settled for.