Stoked to play shows this week. It would be awesome if my snare came tomorrow. The Sheds rule.
This daylight savings thing messed up my sleep more than it already was.
I wish I had more friends to talk about important things with. Just life in general really. Had a conversation with a good friend at school the other day about stuff that I think about a lot but never say, and it was awesome. Never thought i’d have a conversation like that with that person.
I really wish I could stop being sad for no real reason, it is getting ridiculous.
Today while walking through the hall I said to my brother that the one thing I hate the most about being back at high school is hearing the F-word 20+ times every day. One of the special needs teachers was walking in front of us with one of the kids and she overheard me and said “is that really what you hate the most?” and I said yeah, it is. She replied with “Wow, that’s really mature of you to think like that. The word I hate is the R-word” (retard). That was pretty much the end of the conversation, but it just got me thinking about how much ignorance I see/hear every day. Every time I hear faggot, fag, queer, gay being used as an adjective, etc, it just sends chills down my spine. I don’t know why but that shit just bothers me to no end. No one should ever be put down for being different in any way and those differences shouldn’t be used as insults. Could go on forever about this but i’ll just end it with one word: ACCEPTANCE.
Take a second and try to mentally eliminate every piece of information you know about someone or their life due to what you gathered off of a social network. All of the things they’ve done, their viewpoints on things, the boy/girl they were interested in (that you only know about from those wall…
To concentrate on me and what I am doing. I have to learn that for every person let down by something there is five who aren’t. For every imperfection and mistake there is five things I have done the opposite. I can’t please everyone, I can’t even please myself most of the time. But I care too much about what others think and with everyone being so different, not everyone is going to be satisfied ever. It is up to you whether people can be adults and agree to disagree on things and move on. Some can’t and I have realized this week some friendships may be lost over stubbornness. But I am not any different than the person you first met or the person who was always there. Situations just change and people chose one things over the other. Sometimes things work, sometimes they don’t. Doesn’t mean either person is bad person, it just is what it is. But get your self righteous I am always right and no one else can be wrong heads out of your ass and learn that we all are not perfect, YOU AND I INCLUDED.
“I am incomplete damaged and imperfect this world is not divided between saints and sinners forgive me for being human…
I struggle I suffer I know what it means to survive this world is crumbling I’ll take my flaws with me and beyond you beneath it all…”
Part of the lyrics from Saints and Sinners by Trial